[ She admits to not having had one either and it...makes sense. It's also weirdly relieving, in a way. Because this is one spot where Jesper could never understand him. His friend was charming and handsome, as well as good-natured. People were drawn to him like sun to flowers. And he was always willing to go on a date, see how it panned out, have a little fun.

The fact that he's been with Wylan for almost a year now says volumes about their relationship, quite frankly. ]

They wouldn't have deserved you if the idea of Heleen was enough to make them run.

[ She's monstrous but that's even more reason to hold one's ground.

But if they're sharing, into the darkness of his room: ]

I don't like people touching me. [ And touching is a pretty significant part of a relationship, isn't it? It's at direct odds with what he'd want. But stepping over those hurdles is almost too much to bear.

So he simply doesn't put himself in a situation where it'll come up. Jes calls it giving up. He likes to think of it as pragmatic. ]