[ the practice itself will be horrible, but inej knows she can get through it. it's no different than explaining what happened to her therapist. and tomassen is kind, and clearly on her side. and inej has told him most of the story already, in bits and pieces. enough that tomassen knows what happened, and so he won't be surprised when he hears it today.
she fiddles with the tablet, trying to figure out the best way to word this. because in her heart, she knows it's silly. or, at least, she hopes it's silly. but most of what happened at the menagerie inej has kept close to her chest, for a reason. it's humiliating, and degrading. and inej knows how people in ketterdam view the people who work (or, in inej's case, were forced into) the brothels. most opinions don't concern her. but the opinions of her closest friends do. ]
I am afraid that people will look at me differently once they know the truth.
[ she says finally, shifting her attention to pluck at a loose string on her sweater, voice quiet. ]
I don't want to lose the happiness I have now because of it.
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Date: 2020-11-14 05:22 pm (UTC)[ the practice itself will be horrible, but inej knows she can get through it. it's no different than explaining what happened to her therapist. and tomassen is kind, and clearly on her side. and inej has told him most of the story already, in bits and pieces. enough that tomassen knows what happened, and so he won't be surprised when he hears it today.
she fiddles with the tablet, trying to figure out the best way to word this. because in her heart, she knows it's silly. or, at least, she hopes it's silly. but most of what happened at the menagerie inej has kept close to her chest, for a reason. it's humiliating, and degrading. and inej knows how people in ketterdam view the people who work (or, in inej's case, were forced into) the brothels. most opinions don't concern her. but the opinions of her closest friends do. ]
I am afraid that people will look at me differently once they know the truth.
[ she says finally, shifting her attention to pluck at a loose string on her sweater, voice quiet. ]
I don't want to lose the happiness I have now because of it.