[ she thinks she's only had a panic attack in front of him once -- the night of the cross-examination, where she had held it together until she got into the car, and then felt like she couldn't breathe. tomassen had suggested taking her to the hospital, which gripped her with more terror. she had ultimately just been taken home, where she had remained trembling for what felt like hours.
it's really for that reason (hating feeling totally out of control of her senses) that inej has been relatively shy in intimacy. mostly because every single time it gets to a certain point, she feels the clawing sensation in her chest that threatens to cut off her breathing. she's slowly gotten better at it. not feeling nervous, at his hands on her neck, or holding her wrist.
all of that to say: ]
I am safe with you.
[ she murmurs, kissing the corner of his mouth. ]
You can loosen it, if you want. [ the robe. there's an odd tug of anxiety in her stomach, at the thought, but it doesn't feel the same as being afraid or scared. exciting, maybe? ] I think I will be fine.
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it's really for that reason (hating feeling totally out of control of her senses) that inej has been relatively shy in intimacy. mostly because every single time it gets to a certain point, she feels the clawing sensation in her chest that threatens to cut off her breathing. she's slowly gotten better at it. not feeling nervous, at his hands on her neck, or holding her wrist.
all of that to say: ]
I am safe with you.
[ she murmurs, kissing the corner of his mouth. ]
You can loosen it, if you want. [ the robe. there's an odd tug of anxiety in her stomach, at the thought, but it doesn't feel the same as being afraid or scared. exciting, maybe? ] I think I will be fine.