No. [ It doesn't come out strong, especially when he follows it up. ] Not often.
[ This wasn't the conversation he wanted to have. Nor was it something he wanted to bring up. But he had said it without thinking. Or perhaps thinking too hard. Sometimes the difference was a hair.
It's not like he thinks she's particular prone to boredom or even wandering loyalties. And it isn't one of his louder anxieties, the ones he's used to working through. Those persistent worries he's gotten in check. This one is more of a creeping, lingering thought at the edges. On rare occasions, it sinks its claws in, usually keeping him awake in the middle of the night when all of his bad traits come into perfectly clarity. As though the universe has poured a bucket of ice water across his nerves.
He isn't an easy person, after all. Argumentative, stubborn, and on more than one occasion: emotionally unavailable. To top it off, he'll never walk right. Which hasn't bothered her and isn't something he necessarily worries about. But. It's there.
What it all comes to is this: he's afraid of fucking it up. ]
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[ This wasn't the conversation he wanted to have. Nor was it something he wanted to bring up. But he had said it without thinking. Or perhaps thinking too hard. Sometimes the difference was a hair.
It's not like he thinks she's particular prone to boredom or even wandering loyalties. And it isn't one of his louder anxieties, the ones he's used to working through. Those persistent worries he's gotten in check. This one is more of a creeping, lingering thought at the edges. On rare occasions, it sinks its claws in, usually keeping him awake in the middle of the night when all of his bad traits come into perfectly clarity. As though the universe has poured a bucket of ice water across his nerves.
He isn't an easy person, after all. Argumentative, stubborn, and on more than one occasion: emotionally unavailable. To top it off, he'll never walk right. Which hasn't bothered her and isn't something he necessarily worries about. But. It's there.
What it all comes to is this: he's afraid of fucking it up. ]