He isn't sure why he'd worked himself up so much. Maybe it was the fear of expectation, the things he knows he's seen others do. And while he knows, intrinsically, that Inej had similar issues with touch, he also knows she's been working through it in tiny increments. She doesn't flinch nearly as much as she used to, when Jes slings an arm around her shoulders. And he's always stood on the periphery, simultaneously envious and knowing he couldn't do the same.
Sometimes, it still eats at him, when he least expects.
But what she expects is...different, sort of. A continuation of the way they'd been going, before he'd fucked up. Because he can't think of anyone else he'd rather spend so much time with. Whether it was talking over a job or sitting in comfortable silence while he did numbers and she fed the crows. ]
Alright. [ For the first time in a few days, some of the tension he'd been holding onto uncoils, releasing its grip on his lungs. He lifts one hand, flexing his wrist to look at the dark lines neatly printed on his skin. Was there something to this? Most of him still thinks it must be some kind of mistake. Why would the world pair him with anyone? ]
Since day one, yeah? [ That she's known. The phrase had been so unique, there couldn't have been any doubt. ]
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Date: 2021-01-30 02:08 am (UTC)He isn't sure why he'd worked himself up so much. Maybe it was the fear of expectation, the things he knows he's seen others do. And while he knows, intrinsically, that Inej had similar issues with touch, he also knows she's been working through it in tiny increments. She doesn't flinch nearly as much as she used to, when Jes slings an arm around her shoulders. And he's always stood on the periphery, simultaneously envious and knowing he couldn't do the same.
Sometimes, it still eats at him, when he least expects.
But what she expects is...different, sort of. A continuation of the way they'd been going, before he'd fucked up. Because he can't think of anyone else he'd rather spend so much time with. Whether it was talking over a job or sitting in comfortable silence while he did numbers and she fed the crows. ]
Alright. [ For the first time in a few days, some of the tension he'd been holding onto uncoils, releasing its grip on his lungs. He lifts one hand, flexing his wrist to look at the dark lines neatly printed on his skin. Was there something to this? Most of him still thinks it must be some kind of mistake. Why would the world pair him with anyone? ]
Since day one, yeah? [ That she's known. The phrase had been so unique, there couldn't have been any doubt. ]