[ The Barrel demands a lot, day in and day out. On top of that, he's been trying to get them all out of the noose he feels he's put them in. It feels like payment after payment and nothing to show for it. Not yet, anyway. At the end of this, they'll either be rich enough to make the merchers annoyed or too dead to care about lost gains. In either scenario, he's going to greedily hoard these moments with Inej. But he especially doesn't want to go out with regrets.
So yes, he's greedy. Giddy, too, as she kisses his jaw, her small hands curling into his shirt. The nausea is less this time, shot through with warm elation. She leans her head against his shoulder and he puts a hand on her back, over the bandages. Just in case. The closeness is enough, here, settling his nerves. ]
I won't be walking empty handed. [ It is a gamble, a big one, but it's one that should pay off how he imagines. Even if he doesn't know how some of the Dregs will react, he knows Per Haskell well enough to understand what the old man will try to do when he shows up at his doorway.
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[ The Barrel demands a lot, day in and day out. On top of that, he's been trying to get them all out of the noose he feels he's put them in. It feels like payment after payment and nothing to show for it. Not yet, anyway. At the end of this, they'll either be rich enough to make the merchers annoyed or too dead to care about lost gains. In either scenario, he's going to greedily hoard these moments with Inej. But he especially doesn't want to go out with regrets.
So yes, he's greedy. Giddy, too, as she kisses his jaw, her small hands curling into his shirt. The nausea is less this time, shot through with warm elation. She leans her head against his shoulder and he puts a hand on her back, over the bandages. Just in case. The closeness is enough, here, settling his nerves. ]
I won't be walking empty handed. [ It is a gamble, a big one, but it's one that should pay off how he imagines. Even if he doesn't know how some of the Dregs will react, he knows Per Haskell well enough to understand what the old man will try to do when he shows up at his doorway.
Or rather, on his staircase. ]
I'll make it back. [ One way or another. ]