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unarmored. ([personal profile] wraithes) wrote in [community profile] timewasting2020-09-27 05:30 pm

modern au kanej.

a cute gif will go here eventually.
ketterdamn: (triumph)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-13 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her face has completely fallen, something he feels a little bad about. Especially since her eyes have gone glassy, unshed tears trying to make their way out. He's never been good with people when they start crying and Inej is no exception. In fact, he thinks it's somehow worse with her, even if he has some idea on how to comfort her through it now.

Except her expression changes, as he figured it would, shifting to puzzlement and then shock as she gets to the acceptance. ]


A little.

[ He says through a laugh, a wide grin following on its heels. Sitting up, he loops his arm around her shoulders, tugging her in for a side hug. ]

Congratulations.
ketterdamn: (lighting)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-13 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ His grin goes a little wider when she swats him, amusement completely lighting up his face. He gives her a few more minutes to continue reading. Or perhaps to re-read, surely checking the validity of the letter. ]

Yep. And it looks like they want to talk more.

[ So basically, the most ideal situation possible. Her face soon reflects the reality, brightening as she sits up on her knees. The letter flutters in the general direction of the table, but he's more concentrated on pulling Inej closer, smiling into the kiss. Arms looped around her waist, he gives her a happy and affectionate squeeze, honestly thrilled for her. ]
ketterdamn: (rare)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-13 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her weight settles in his lap and he's both warmed and enticed—these days they seem to go hand in hand more often. Sometimes, it's rather annoying. Because he would like to focus on her win right now and not other things. ]

Love you. [ And of course, he's willing to help out any time. He just wants her to be happy and if filling out some paperwork so she doesn't have to does the trick, then he'll do it. It's his area of expertise at any rate. ]

Are you? I'm getting mixed messages here.

[ He says, kissing her again, hands sliding to settle on her waist. ]
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[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-13 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
That's drastic.

[ She'd attempted it once before, though the circumstances had certainly been different. He had a poor reaction to her touching his face with damp hands—a complete accident, on her part. It wasn't like she'd known that was a problem for him. And he hadn't anticipated it being a thing to worry about.

So they ended up with her on the couch. And then on the floor of their room. Eventually, they'd made a wall of pillows between them on the bed so he wouldn't accidentally come in contact with her in the middle of the night.

He's since recovered and they've gone back to their usual closeness. At least at the start of the night. In the morning, he ends up rolling towards her again if his consciousness surfaces before she gets up.

Still, the point is: it hadn't been a good time, having her be not in the bed. He'd been worried about her getting a good sleep. And he'd missed her, almost desperately. Even if he couldn't have touched her without his stomach curling.

Nothing like now, where he kisses her cheek and feels nothing but a small uptick of happiness. ]


I can make it up to you.
ketterdamn: (triumph)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-14 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Dinner was on its way, that's true. So he couldn't use that as a possibility. Though, he does have a slightly different angle, spurred on by her being in his lap, wanting to celebrate, and...well, some previous learning experiences. ]

I have an idea, for after dinner.

[ He catches her hand and kisses her palm and then her wrist, feeling the slightest flush in his face. Getting used to talking about intimacy has been a journey. They've been dating for a while now and yet. ]

If you're up for it. [ Because he wants to check in, first. She still has days where the scars Heleen left are more visible, floating to the surface. ]
ketterdamn: (what)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-14 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He kisses a little further down her forearm before releasing it, both hands settling back onto her hips. There's still a faint bit of color clinging onto his cheeks, he can feel the heat of it, as he tries not to think too hard about what he wants to do later.

Because they've been pushing their boundaries more, figuring out what feels good and what doesn't. They'd figured out pretty quickly that fingering doesn't go how either of them would like. For him, it's a touch thing, the (flattering) dampness hard for him to work past. And for her, it dredges up bad memories. Nameless men touching without asking, trying to control how her body reacted.

He thinks, though, he might have a solution. ]


I'll be fine after dinner. [ Really, he just needs the time to decompress. And to not be talking to a bunch of people he doesn't know very well aside from their financial state.

The doorbell pings and he ducks forward for another quick kiss before he lets her go. ]


Speaking of, probably.
ketterdamn: (rare)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-15 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ Well, she has a point. His parents or maybe Jesper might, but they typically texted or called before they dropped in. They all knew he liked to be given a heads up.

She starts taking containers out and he helps arrange the napkins and utensils, accepting the scallion pancakes when she hands them over.

Or rather: the pancakes with the grass. ]


I'm never living that down, huh?

[ Though he laughs lightly, opening up his container and starting to dig in. Honestly, he's not sour over her reminding him– it had been a good night. A good memory. Even if it feels so strangely long ago. ]

Gonna tell your parents about the letter? [ He's sure they'll be thrilled. ]
ketterdamn: (leather)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-15 03:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Both of them settle in to eat; he props his feet up on the nearby ottoman. Which is slightly off to the side but he's currently too lazy and hungry to move it. His hands full, after all, with scallion pancakes.

Inej mentions she'll call her parents in the morning—it is rather late there, getting on towards midnight. They'll be excited to hear from her first thing in the morning. At least, first thing in Kerch. And he can imagine her mother will be thrilled to have her daughter back in the same country again, instead of in dreary Kerch. She frequently mentions how awful it must be that Inej doesn't get enough sun. Kaz agrees with her, though that is why they tend to go back and forth. ]


"We"? Or just you? [ He's still not totally certain Asena has warmed up to him. It feels like it's on again off again. ]
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[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-17 01:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ She corrects him with emphasis and nudges his leg, which makes him hum—still a bit unconvinced. Asena doesn't seem to hate him anymore but he isn't sure she necessarily likes him. ]

Does she now? [ Well, that's interesting. He doubts Inej is just saying things to make him feel better, she's always been pretty frank about her relationship with her mother. And, well, her mother's relationship with him. Whatever that is, with this newest revelation. ]

She's always scrutinizing, like she's waiting for some proof it's a sham.

[ Obviously, he isn't deterred. But it is awkward. ]
ketterdamn: (Default)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-18 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ah, well, that is certainly true. And her mother has good reason to be protective—Kerch and its people didn't make a great impression with how Inej ended up while she was here. Obviously not everyone is Tante Heleen but the association stuck, especially after years of grief in not knowing what happened.

She just happened to transfer a lot of those negative feelings to him, seeing as he was from here. Thankfully some of that sourness has dropped away now that she's gotten to know him. Or possibly just come to terms with the fact that he isn't going anywhere. Still, she seems reticent about the positives. ]


Of course not. [ Inej please!!! ] You're stuck with me until you get bored.

[ He loosely wraps his fingers around her ankle, the one she's been nudging him with, sliding his thumb along her leg. Just a small bit of affection because she's too far to kiss. Not really that far but he doesn't want to disrupt their dinner containers. ]
ketterdamn: (huddle)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-18 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
No. [ It doesn't come out strong, especially when he follows it up. ] Not often.

[ This wasn't the conversation he wanted to have. Nor was it something he wanted to bring up. But he had said it without thinking. Or perhaps thinking too hard. Sometimes the difference was a hair.

It's not like he thinks she's particular prone to boredom or even wandering loyalties. And it isn't one of his louder anxieties, the ones he's used to working through. Those persistent worries he's gotten in check. This one is more of a creeping, lingering thought at the edges. On rare occasions, it sinks its claws in, usually keeping him awake in the middle of the night when all of his bad traits come into perfectly clarity. As though the universe has poured a bucket of ice water across his nerves.

He isn't an easy person, after all. Argumentative, stubborn, and on more than one occasion: emotionally unavailable. To top it off, he'll never walk right. Which hasn't bothered her and isn't something he necessarily worries about. But. It's there.

What it all comes to is this: he's afraid of fucking it up. ]
ketterdamn: (think about it)

[personal profile] ketterdamn 2020-12-18 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's a pinched expression on his face as she pulls her ankle carefully out of his grip. Now that the lid is off on the worries, they're running rampant, the thorn of insecurity sharp in his chest. It's fighting as he tries to just breathe and get it under control. Acknowledge the thoughts and dismiss them with the reality.

She's here, with him, and has been for a while now. He doesn't see that changing, despite the niggling doubt that's trying to convince him otherwise. More of it is erased as she cups his face, the touch so familiar and frankly, welcome amidst the swirl of negative thoughts. ]


I—yeah. [ He loosely grasps her wrists, thumbs settled on the backs of her hands as he gives her a frail smile. ] Who would make fun of me for grass pancakes?

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