OPEN POST 2020.

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【my ❝CALL ME OUT❞ post】
get my ass in gear.

♛ here is my muselist. ♛ post "calling" one of them out — you can do so by putting their name in the subject line! ♛ can be informal/formal/comment spam/crosscanon/explicit/whatever tickles your fancy! ♛ feel free to make up a scenario at the start, or wait to see where things go. meme code.

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[wraithes]

[ as he moves, inej gets up with a swing of her legs, getting up with ease now that there is a plan. And she fishes out some pajamas, ducking into the bathroom to change, but not before: ]

Whatever you want.

[ and the door closes, so she can change.

she had promised to make him blush, and inej herself feels the need to push herself a bit further. to test her own comfort level. and so she tugs on a loose shirt for a top, but a pair of loose shorts for bottoms. still modest and covered, inej thinks, but it’s more skin. More vulnerability.

( it’s also somewhat warm in the room, so she knows she’ll be more comfortable, anyway. )

so once she does that and folds up her clothing, inej peers into the room, and seeing it safe, steps out of it. admittedly a little more tentative than nights past, but pushing forward is the only way to go. ]

What did you get?

[ketterdamn]

[ She leaves it in his hands and he has to think it over before realizing he wasn't sure what they had. It's not like he's familiar with the food here.

As she goes into the bathroom to change, he slips his shoes back on, off to check with the desk on what's what. Thankfully, he doesn't have to worry about a lack of Ravkan understanding– probably a side effect of it being a hotel in a port– as one of the people down at the desk speaks Kerch. There's a slight accent but it's easy enough to work through.

Once the order is in, he makes his way back to the room, overlapping with Inej coming back out from changing and getting ready for bed. He's by the shut door, leaning his cane nearby, and he freezes when he looks over at her. Because that is just. A lot of skin. ]

Um. [ What did he get? Does it matter? Kaz swallows, feeling a bit of a blush creeping onto his cheeks. ] Curry?

[wraithes]

[ it's this bizarre mixture of self-conscious and emboldened, as he clearly quasi-stammers his way through what he ordered for dinner. belatedly, inej realizes she probably should have ordered given she knows three languages compared to kaz's one (and a half). but he seems to have managed just fine, and so inej moves to the bed, to sit back on it, crossing her legs underneath herself.

not quite brave enough to stretch out again as she had before, but. you know. she's getting there.

most importantly: ]

I told you so.

[ knowingly, as she reaches up with a finger to tap her own cheek.

she made him blush. :) ]

[ketterdamn]

[ She moves and it snaps him out of his daze. Well, just enough that he isn't left staring at her, speechless, for too long. As he steps away from the door, shrugging out of his jacket: ]

I can't complain about being proven wrong. [ There's the added bonus of her looking so relaxed and content, which is always nice to see. While she gets comfortable, he goes through the motions of undressing and redressing. His concession to the warmer room is short sleeves and pants in a lighter fabric. Soon enough, he joins her on the bed, gaze flicking down to her half-bared legs as he leans back. ]

[wraithes]

[ she grins a little, and though she averts her eyes for his undressing, she does seem to be more comfortable. more relaxed. and she remains where she is when he sits down, watching him thoughtfully before she scoots herself to sit next to him, folding her legs once more once she's shoulder to shoulder with him. ]

Today was a good day.

[ which feels like an obvious thing to say, but it's really the first time in a long time that inej can remember enjoying the day without anything really weighing on her shoulders. even in the fallout of the van eck job, in the tenuous weeks between nina leaving and obtaining her ship, had been miserable in that she didn't really speak to kaz.

vacation feels nice. as does relaxing. she should probably do it more often. ]

[ketterdamn]

[ When she scoots next to him, he relaxes, now so used to her leaning against him that he doesn't feel an ounce of nerves or nausea. He curls a loose arm around her waist, something he's been wanting to do all day. They'd been moving around too much, going in and out of shops, trying on the occasional pair of pants or a shirt.

But like she says: a good day, to which he hums his assent to. ]

Seemed like you had a good conversation with that shop owner—Kinjal?

[wraithes]

[ the arm around her waist is becoming a comfort, and inej leans her head against his shoulder. comfortable to relax while they wait for the food to be brought to their room.

at mention of the woman, inej makes an amused noise, closing her eyes to soak up the warmth and the feeling of his arm on her waist. ]

Kinjal. [ it's a subtle correction of emphasis on the syllables, drawing out the ah sound just a little. ] She wanted to know whether I was visiting with the caravan. And once I said no, she had sixteen follow-up questions.

[ but she doesn't sound too bothered by that, her lips curving into a faint smile at the thought. ]

She mostly wanted to know why I was in town with a rich man from Kerch.

[ketterdamn]

[ This is definitely approaching a comfort that he's loathe to part from. He knows he'll have to get up at some point, to answer the door. While he could wave the service in, he doesn't want anyone else seeing Inej's short-clad legs. Is that weird? Maybe. She's been through enough people staring, is his logic. ]

Kinjal. [ He repeats the correction slowly, feeling the difference in how the syllables fall. His eyebrows go up as she continues on the topic, partially amused. ]

And what did you end up telling her?

[wraithes]

[ a soft hmmm. ]

She wanted to know if I needed help, and I said no.

[ suli girls are frequently kidnapped and lost. no one tended to care, when they went missing, because they live such a nomadic life. inej is certain the ravkan government didn't particularly care when she went missing. they usually didn't. so the suli have to look out for their own, more often than not. ]

I said we were in the city on a vacation, and that I could break your fingers without much effort. She seemed to feel better, after that.

[ inej also told her that they were there together, but that feels like a weird thing to have to explain, for some reason. ]

[ketterdamn]

[ Ah. Things click into place when she says that and he's momentarily jumping back to when they'd first gone into the shop. There'd been something like a tension that had eventually dispersed. Probably after he was deemed a non-threat.

It does have him pressing his mouth in a thin line, considering the people that had taken Inej away to begin with. The ones that still steal Suli children—easy targets because of how divorced from larger cities they usually are.

He squeezes her a little tighter to himself, briefly. ] You could do more than break my fingers.

[ Which she's probably aware of but it can't hurt to say aloud. ]

[wraithes]

[ she can feel the tension in his posture, as he gently squeezes her closer, and inej opens her eyes to tilt her head up slightly, to look at his expression, brow furrowing for half a moment before resuming her position to rest her head on his shoulder. ]

I know.

[ mildly, but she pauses, allowing that to hang in the air before continuing. ]

I am fine.

[ truthfully, as she carefully unfolds her legs out from underneath herself to stretch them out, crossing her legs at the ankles, her eyes still closed as she makes herself comfortable. ]

[ketterdamn]

[ Her weight against him is a comfort, even as he feels that well of anger bubbling up. It's a similar sharpness to the kind he held for Rollins. Except it's directed at slavers he knows nothing about, aside from their general atrocities.

(As always, some wheels start turning, on how he can do something about it). ]

We could find them, if you wanted. [ He glances at her, smoothing a hand down her leg briefly, affectionate and reassuring. ]

[wraithes]

[ the comment causes her eyes to open, catching the sight of his hand smoothing down her leg. but her mind is focused on what kaz said, not the feeling. for once.

it would be a lie, to say that it hadn't crossed inej's mind. to return to os kervo, to hunt down the people who did this to her. they are surely still in business, catching girls, selling them for profit. but she had always hesitated. mostly because there were other goals, other lines to disrupt. other people to free. pursuing the people who had caught her felt . . . selfish. and what good was revenge, really?

she had seen what revenge had done to kaz's heart. and inej was loathe to allow it to do the same to her. but would it really be revenge if it was preventing what happened to her to another young girl? ]

We could.

[ finally, though she sounds distracted. as if she's truly entertaining the idea. still processing it, in her mind. in her heart. and, eventually, inej settles on an answer, drawing her knees up a bit to her chest, so she can properly tuck herself against kaz's side. for comfort, more than anything else. ]

It would not change what happened. And I do not remember much, about that night. I -- [ and she pauses before pursing her lips together, steeling her resolve. ] I think I blocked most of it out.

[ketterdamn]

[ Her response surprises him a bit. Because the distracted nature of it says that she's considering the idea, turning over the possibility. He stays silent and slowly slides his hand along her side, his own version of comfort where words fail. It's her choice, in the end. He knows what he would choose, every time, not one for forgiveness. ]

It wouldn't. [ After all, ruining Pekka Rollins had not given him his brother back. Nor those years lost to the ruthlessness of the Barrel. It hadn't magically healed his scars (inside and out) or unbroken his leg.

Still, something had settled in him afterwards. A spirit put to rest. Rollins could never dupe anyone like that again, could never create another Kaz Brekker. That had been worth it. ]

I remembered every detail, for better or worse. [ It had given him the resolve on the days where he wanted nothing more than to crawl back into the harbor. ] If they're still out there, they're probably still leaving damage behind.

[wraithes]

[ she still doesn't know, not wholly, what pekka did to him. she knows generally (being there, for kaz's best, and his worst, comes with the toll of knowing certain things most people probably wouldn't want to know). and one day, maybe, he'll tell her those details he remembers that he hasn't said. or maybe he won't.

it doesn't really matter, either way.

and she mulls over that fact, and what he said, her head still resting on his shoulder. it doesn't really matter to her, in the end, if kaz wants to tell her what happened to him. what matters to her is that he heals from it, and he is. slowly, but surely.

maybe it would do the same for her.

and even if it didn't, kaz is correct -- they're still leaving damage behind. ]

It was in Os Kervo.

[ finally, her tone quiet, her eyes fixated on the wall ahead of her. ]

[ketterdamn]

[ There's silence as she thinks it over some more and he lets it settle, leaning a bit towards her. It's a comfort to be this close, her weight against his side and the warmth seeping through the fabric of his pajamas. If he had clued in earlier, maybe they could've gotten here sooner.

Or maybe the timing is just right, having gotten over their own particular hurdles enough. Now they aren't fighting their pasts in isolation; that alone is helpful to know. Because despite neither of them having the exact details, there's an understanding. ]

You don't have to tell me everything. [ But Os Kervo—that's a start. Doubtless it's an easy path to tread through. A place to resupply. And with enough coin, get people to turn the other way, to ignore some children who look lost in a big city. ]

[wraithes]

I hold no shame over it anymore.

[ she used to, quite a bit. and she knows some part of her feels the violation, the filth, from what occurred. but inej is no longer that person, and she can't continue to carry guilt for something that was not her fault. ]

I don't remember the dock, or the ship, or the flag. I was blindfolded and gagged, and I stayed that way for the journey to Kerch.

[ no glimpses of faces. or maybe they had, and she just blocked it out. ]

But I remember the man who guarded the cells, the one in charge, smelled like cheap tobacco and fruit wine.

[ as did many of the sailors on board, but this one was different. ]

And I remember that he knew Haleen well.

[ketterdamn]

[ As she describes some of it, he can feel another bubble of anger. The fact that this had happened at all, unforgivable. It's not useful to simply be angry, though. What this will take is careful planning, plenty of research.

A slaver who smells of fruit wine and cheap tobacco is nothing special. But a connection to Heleen—that he can use. The trafficking routes to Kerch can be sniffed out, especially considering its supposed illegality. And anyone with ties to a brothel that's basically in ruins has got to be looking for other places.

There's also the matter of Heleen herself being so recognizable by description. An image that's going to continue to work against her here. ]

That narrows the field a bit; she was very specific. [ In just about everything: her business, her taste, how she handled people.

He's drawn out of his thoughts at the knock on the door and takes the few moments away to get dinner (nearly forgotten in the midst of their conversation) sorted. Service having gone again and door shut, he comes back over with the tray, settling on the side table. ]

[wraithes]

[ she's about to tell him that he doesn't need to do this, because she recognizes the tone, the look on his face -- he's planning, and inej almost tells him that he needn't when there's a knock on the door. and when kaz gets up to go handle it, inej quickly but quietly slips underneath the covers -- covering her legs, but only for a brief moment.

once the door closes again, she tugs the quilt off again, and she watches him set the tray down, her expression a little hard to read. and she folds her hands in her lap, looking down at them for a moment, trying to figure out what she wants to say. ]

You do not have to devote your time to this, if -- [ if what, inej. if he has better things to do, is probably what she wants to say, but even inej knows that that will be met with stubbornness. ] I could track them down.

[ kaz has already given her so much, and in comparison, inej isn't sure she could ever repay that debt. -- not that it is a debt, but all the same. ]

[ketterdamn]

[ He picks up a bowl and hands it over to her, fork already scooped in. After he grabs his, he sits back down on the bed diagonal to her, idly putting his train of thought back together as he mixes the contents of his dinner.

Of course, at her comment, he gives her a funny look, as though the idea of not doing anything had never crossed his mind.

(It had, but so brief as to not count). ] I wouldn't have offered if I didn't want to, Inej.

[wraithes]

[ she takes the bowl, carefully folding the curry into the rice. the smell is nostalgic, and familiar. and she considers taking her first bite, but decides against it, in lieu of considering what he said.

inej ghafa has given a lot, to kaz brekker. some without regret, and some with. she became exactly who he needed, but most importantly, she became what she needed. but kaz has given her far more than she could ever ask from anyone. and inej knows that part of that is simply returning what's owed, but most of it is because kaz cares about her.

wrestling with that is . . . difficult, for some reason. mostly because inej has no idea why she is balking, at this offer of help. she is proud, but not stupid. but the prospect of ending something that ruined so much is almost overwhelming. ]

You have given me so much.

[ as she stirs her curry. ]

And hunting them down will not be easy.

[ketterdamn]

[ His bowl gets propped in his lap as he waits for it to cool. And as he works his way through this conversation. Inej is being... not exactly hard headed but perhaps a bit resistant. Which seems like more of a move he's pulled in the past than something she's known for.

Though, he thinks he can understand the reasoning to try and put him off of it. Chances are it could be a long haul, depending on how difficult the information is to dig up.

But then, he's never shied away from things that were difficult. Before their little team, the Ice Court had been considered impenetrable. And yet, they'd gotten and out with all limbs intact. He reaches forward, cupping her chin and meeting her eyes. ]

I want to do this for you. With you. I don't care if it isn't easy—when has anything been, for us?

[wraithes]

[ she's about to continue when he reaches out to cup her chin, lifting her head to meet his eyes. she's clearly startled, by the motion, and is about to ask what when he speaks. and whatever protest she had dies in her throat, because there's really no argument to be had, against that.

maybe it's the knowledge that it could be over, or that he has her back no matter what, but there's a sudden weight in her throat, and inej feels a prickling in the back of her eyes. the suspicious tell-tale sign of tears, which inej stubbornly tries to keep at bay.

it's mostly a success, though her eyes do appear wet, and her voice muted, as she says: ]

Never.

[ it's quiet.

it's never been easy. no part of any piece of their lives have been easy. it's been a constant struggle and fight and clawing to the top. ]

[ketterdamn]

[ Initially, there's a bit of panic that raced through him when he sees the threat of tears in her eyes. They get too glossy to be anything else and he wonders if he said something wrong. If he overstepped a boundary with his words; it wouldn't be the first time he had done so inadvertently.

Her voice has that muffled wobble to it when she finally speaks up and he breathes an internal sigh of relief. His thumb strokes across her cheek, gently, as reassuring as he can get in a situation where he feels out of his depth.

He can't recall ever seeing her come this close to crying before, even at some of her worst moments. ]

Besides, I think they could use a little taste of what it means to be chased. [ And by none other than Dirtyhands and the Wraith. If they've ever passed through Ketterdam, even glancingly, they would know what that means. ]

[wraithes]

[ she's half afraid that if she starts, she won't be able to stop. so she fights down the urge, her lips curving into a faint smile as a shuddered laugh escapes before she sniffs, reaching up a hand to wipe her eyes quickly. feeling foolish for letting herself get so worked up over something that hasn't even happened yet.

but once she does that, inej carefully sets aside her bowl of curry before leaning forward to wrap her arms loosely around his neck, burying her face into his shoulder for a tight hug.

she doesn't say anything. mostly because there isn't that much to say, save for allowing the feeling of gratitude and love wash over her, her fingers curling into his shirt.

life has not been easy, but to this day, inej isn't sure why the saints granted her a sliver of good fortune in having kaz visit the menagerie on that day. ]