I can ruin them plenty, you'll just expedite the process.
[ It's faster to destroy a merch when equipped with all the proper information. He has his contacts and runners, but no full spy. No unseen eyes and ears, silent as a cat. The merchers wouldn't even know what hit them. ]
Don't mistake my annoyance with anger, they're not the same. [ Truthfully, it's rare he feels the burn of white hot anger. His temper usually isn't from fury, it's from aggravation. A thousand little stupid things to tolerate. He waves her off with: ]
Go on then. I'll be there.
[ In the meantime, he has things to do. And maybe some skiv to shake down so he can clear the feeling of his hackles being raised. ]
If you could ruin them plenty on your own, then why are they still here?
[ she responds mildly, but she doesn't bother waiting for a response, instead turning her back to walk away, her braid falling neatly against her spine. he can see her tipping the dishes into a waiting receptable, offering a warm hello to the cook in the kitchens -- and then, she's gone.
down a hallway, or upstairs, or outside, who knows. but vanishes amongst the bustle of people without so much as a trace. ]
[ The thing is, she is as infuriating as she is quick. Not only is she stealthy with fast steps, she picks up on things with ease. And determination.
Despite their spat in the middle of the dining room, he had shown up the next morning at the time she'd picked. Just to show her that he could. There'd also been a matter of his night being unrestful, thoughts spinning like Makker's Wheel. He hadn't been able to stop the looped deluge and found himself drifting in and out, dreams—if they could be called that—fitful and lurid.
So when dawn fully crested, he'd dragged himself out of bed to their first lesson in fighting with a knife. He'd let her borrow his pocket knife, wanting to start off on something easy to carry and wield.
Over the next few weeks, she'd shown him exceptional promise. He hadn't needed to repeat himself much, only on the trickier bits like the overhand to underhand strike. By this point, he can't teach her any more, having imparted all his knowledge.
Of course, she can't continue to borrow his knives. It's impractical. Part of him also feels bad, still, for being fairly cruel about his comment on her waffle a few weeks past.
Not that he'll admit it. He does still think she's a bit soft.
Either way, it's what brings him to ask her up to his room. Office, really. He'd seen it and had known it should belong to her. ]
[ she's reached something of an understanding with herself, about kaz brekker. that she's bound to him, for better or for worse, but she was not going to tolerate his absurd attitude problem. she needed to play the game in order to win, but she wasn't going to sacrifice who she was in order to do it.
so - she did as she was told, when it came to haskell. but with kaz, she disagreed. she pushed. she drew lines. and for the most part, he seemed to hate that, but he had continued to teach her. and had continued to show her the most effective way to defend herself. and, though he hadn't used the words, to kill.
they've reached a relatively easy schedule. and inej's arm is well on its way to fully healing, though she still keeps it wrapped and balmed. the scarring is going to be awful, but she doesn't care. it's prettier to look at than the brand that heleen had forced upon her skin.
on this day, though, kaz had asked her to meet him upstairs following a shift. and she obliges, though a little confused as to why. she doesn't bother going up the stairs, instead scaling the wall to slip in through the window with the broken lock, carrying a bag.
waffles, from his favorite stand in the lid. a peace offering, maybe. or maybe she just wanted to try them. ]
You should fix your window.
[ she says mildly, slipping inside to land silently on the floor, depositing the bag of food on his desk as she brushes back the hood of the jacket she recently bought. comfortable and able to climb in. ]
[ He has noticed she's taken to going in through windows rather than using doors like everyone else. Well, he supposes it keeps her in practice for going up and down buildings. And is more expedient than walking around on ground level.
In some ways, he's come to expect her arrival through his window. Which is what she does now, swinging in effortlessly and depositing a bag on his desk. ]
If someone else can climb three stories through my window without my notice, I'm likely to hire them.
[ It's not a skill everyone possesses. Especially the bit about being quiet during the whole affair. ]
What's this? [ He hadn't expected her to bring anything but herself. ]
[ with a shrug, as she settles herself into a chair to wait for him to get what he wants from the bag. it had been something of a pain to go across the city to get it from this specific stand, but she had had a little bit extra time today to make the trip.
mostly because, on reflection, she would get nowhere in befriending (or whatever this relationship is supposed to be) kaz brekker by constantly being difficult. besides, being angry was exhausting. being nice was much easier.
and, most importantly: ]
I haven't eaten yet, and I didn't want to find food later. So whatever you need to talk to me about can happen over food.
[ she's half-wondering what else she screwed up, truth be told, but kaz appears to be in a halfway-decent mood. ]
She does present a logical argument though. It's late in the day for them both, but especially for her because she's usually up much earlier than him. Up with the sun and birds.
He doesn't see a reason to refuse, so he does open the bag, pulling one of the wrapped items out. It's waffles, naturally, a thing they both share. But he can tell by the wrapping that it's from the Lid. The one he almost never gets out to, despite it being his favorite.
Glancing up, he catches her gaze, studying her face for a moment.
And then he doesn't dig in right away, pulling a wrapped rectangular package out from his desk drawer and setting it in front of her on the desk. ]
[ he seems to be looking for an explanation as to why she bothered, and inej arches her eyebrows as he studies her face. ]
It is not poisoned.
[ she says mildly, stretching out an arm to take a waffle out of the bag once he's gotten one of his own. she picked out a relatively plain one, too, mostly because her waffle doesn't really travel well. and inej is about to settle back to eat when kaz pulls out a package and puts it on the desk.
a . . . gift? or: ]
What is it?
[ she doesn't move to take it just yet, brow furrowed slightly as she glances at him, confused. ]
[ At that, he settles back in his seat, unfolding the wrapping from his waffle. ]
It's not going to bite.
[ Not if she didn't want it to, anyway. And somehow he doubts she'll decide to pull it on him, even if she would technically have an opening to do so in here.
But as she said, they're basically in this together. He's tied to her contract just as much as she is, since he'd put his neck on the line for her possibility of freedom. It was going to be work for them both to get her enough money to pay it off, but it was certainly a better deal than the one Heleen had forced her into. The one she couldn't even read as it had been in Kerch.
This one she had been able to read. And could always go back to read again, if she was worried about terms changing. He doesn't think Haskell will, though. As long as the old man gets his kruge, he'll be happy. ]
[ she still seems a little puzzled, at that, but she does set her wrapped waffle back on his desk in exchange for the box. her fingers slide underneath the paper, undoing it neatly. clearly not one to mindlessly tear open presents, but carefully dismantle them to save the paper.
as she unfolds the wrapping to reveal a wooden box, she opens it to reveal a knife. the craftsmanship is beautiful, the blade easily able to fit in her smaller hands. the handle looks like it would fit perfectly against her palm. but she doesn't remove it, quite yet.
not every act of kindness is a trick, inej. but: ]
I cannot afford this.
[ she says quietly, eyes flickering back up to meet his. and while she doesn't say it, the meaning in her eyes is fairly clear. she won't have another dime added to her tab to work off; whatever she has, she'll pay for herself. ]
[ She looks confused. Maybe a little concerned. It makes sense, Heleen isn't known to be gracious or generous, not unless it's with her temper or beatings. He slowly starts in on his waffle as she carefully opens the wrapping and then the box, not wanting her to feel like he's staring her down while she does.
There's a pause after she lifts the lid off the box, as though she isn't sure what to do with it. ]
You should have your own means of defense. It won't go on your contract.
[ Keeping herself alive is payment enough, right? It would be stupid to buy out her contract and then never give her any of the tools with which to make it in the Barrel. He'd told Haskell she'd be a great spider and that's what he'll get. That's what they'll all get. She already has a reputation because she's been around him, but he knows she'll have her own. One like his, armor to pull on—no one will want to touch her again.
[ it won't go on your contract, which meant . . . he was giving her a gift?
her first instinct is to not trust it, but common sense overrides the paranoia almost immediately. kaz brekker was an arrogant brat on most days, but not one to lie to her. or hold something over her head, or expect anything more of her than what was already in their deal. so - if he says it won't go on the contract, then it won't.
so she wraps her fingers around the handle experimentally, lifting the knife out of the box. it's light, and she can tell it's perfectly balanced even without removing the blade from the sheath. it's beautiful, in a bizarre way. she never thought she would think that of a knife.
for the first time in what feels like years, a genuine smile curves her lips as she looks up at him again, clearly appreciative. ]
[ She can call it a gift but really, it's just practical. For them both.
Still, his gaze flicks up as she takes the knife out of the box, her grip sure but almost reverent. There's a tip of her hand as she tests the balance of it. The handle fits well, small enough for her to grip but big enough it won't cramp her hand or slip.
Maybe the bone handle is a little morbid, but it felt fitting, somehow.
When she looks up, he catches her gaze, feeling a wash of warmth when she smiles. It isn't one of her small ones, the rare times he's seen one ghosting on her mouth. This one is wider, genuine, and it lights up her whole face. ]
Can't have you using a toothpick for a knife.
[ Not like the pocket knife she'd been using occasionally. ]
[ belatedly, she's glad she made the trip to the lid to get the waffles. it pales in comparison to the knife, but at least the token of appreciation was given.
she unsheathes the knife, the glint of the blade pristine. it's sharp, the silvery blade perfectly suited against the white-bone of the handle. she can nearly see her reflection in the metal.
inej sheaths the blade again, her smile still on her features before she carefully sets it back in the box, mindful not to scuff anything. sometimes, inej wondered whether the words on her wrist were a blessing or a curse. there were days where she was certain kaz hated her. but there was some good in there, underneath whatever harmed him. little bits of light, peeking through the forced darkness.
today is a good day. an excellent one, really.
she sets the box back on his desk so she could get her waffle, to join him in dinner. she's reluctant to let go of the blade, but it seems silly to let her dinner get cold. especially after the journey she took to go get it. ]
[ She takes a few more moments to study the craftsmanship, unsheathing the blade and checking the metal. There's still a smile on her face, features lighting up in a way that...well, improves his mood, somewhat. He tries not to think about it.
The knife gets sheathed once more and she sets the blade back into its box with care. ]
Found it. [ And he'd honestly been a little surprised to find something that had such perfect proportions for her. Small enough to be hidden easily, sharp enough to get any job done. Because he had wanted assurance that when she stuck someone, it wasn't going to be like hacking away. A dull knife is a painful way to go but slow and useless in a fight.
He settles in with his waffles as well, leaning forward in his chair so he doesn't drop anything. ]
The shopkeep mentioned it should go to someone who knew how to use it.
[ well. she does know how to do that, at the very least. and as she takes another bite of her waffle, inej falls into silence to mull that over. that she can now be considered dangerous, which is an odd thing to label herself as.
she never really thought of herself as dangerous before. too small and lithe and fragile. not anymore, with slowly building her muscle back, feeling stronger than she has in years.
she wonders what heleen would say if she saw her now. ]
When am I going to go with you on a job?
[ she asks idly, taking another bite of her waffle. it's something that causes her anxiety, because while she knows how to use the knife, she isn't so sure she can. but there's plenty to be done, without killing someone. or hurting them in any way. she can be useful without that.
[ He doesn't have an exact timeline, not yet. A strange thing for him, though not totally uncommon. Sometimes in the Barrel, one had to wait for pieces to fit together. And right now, he was in one of those moments of limbo.
It's fine, he's a patient person. Though, he understands her anxiety around going out and doing an actual job that didn't just involve sneaking and listening. ]
If things fall into place right, about two days, give or take. So eager to stick someone?
[ She doesn't seem to be, but maybe the comment will lighten the mood. Maybe. It probably came out more serious than he meant. ]
[ it's said with certainty, her eyes flickering away from his face back to her waffle, which she picks at, a slight frown appearing on her features.
killing someone is going to happen. she's no fool. that's what's expected of her, in part. but most of her job is to collect secrets, lies, and pass them on to kaz. if she has to kill someone, she would only do so in self-defense. or to save someone else. never affirmatively.
she can keep at least that shred of morality, with everything else sacrificed. ]
I would rather jump than wait.
[ ripping off the bandage would be easier than tip-toeing around the inevitable of having to participate in dreg business. two days gives her time to prepare, if nothing but mentally. ]
[ Well, the humor didn't quite land. As he expected. Jesper is better at that sort of thing. Meaning: people. He's better at people.
Though strangely, he feels weird about having made her frown, the comment clearly a bit upsetting. It's never mattered before, so why does it matter now? He mentally shakes that off, focusing instead on his dinner and her follow up. ]
You'll get your chance. [ And: ] No one will hear you coming.
[ He'll be shocked, honestly shocked, if they do. ]
[ it feels wrong, to discuss something that as if she was looking forward to it. which she is, in a way. of just getting it over with. but mostly, inej is tired of being left behind while the others (who are slowly but surely becoming her friends) go off to risk their lives for . . . whatever it is that kaz brekker has dreamt up that evening.
she's beyond tired of feeling like she needs protecting.
she picks at her waffle a bit more, letting his words wash over her, before inej elects to change the subject. ]
I do not taste the difference, between these and the ones down the street.
[ she says, as she bites into her waffle. ]
Seems as if it is not worth the walk.
[ she might be goading an argument. a non-serious one, really. it's clear by the look in her eyes that she's joking. ]
[ Her frown remains, the slightest downturn of her mouth at the corners. Talking about inflicting pain or even murdering someone—likely out of self defense, on her part—clearly doesn't set well. Kaz remembers the first time he'd done it, how he'd made it through the initial part and then retched horribly in the bathroom back at the Slat.
But it had been one step closer to taking down Rollins. One more stacked card in his then budding reputation for ruthlessness. He supposes he should feel worse, for all the lives he's ended, for the people he's surely made miserable in the wake of his schemes.
Except he isn't. They'd stood in the way of a non-negotiable goal.
Inej won't be like him, he thinks, despite enduring far worse in aspects he never had to consider, being out on the street. He doesn't think it too often of people here but: she's too good for the Barrel. ]
You become a waffle connoisseur when I wasn't looking?
[ Pls, this waffle is better and she has to know that!!! ]
Besides, you're comparing the wrong thing, it's the texture that's different.
[ people in the slat don't shut up. on most levels it's really annoying, and inej can understand why kaz likes the attic-space he's ensnared for himself. it's much quieter up here.
at any rate, one of the things the dregs like to talk about is food. and some of them talk about women, which causes inej's lips to curl in disgust, though she tries to keep her expression neutral whenever it happens. she's clocked one or two in the face, for making the odd comment about the menagerie. most of them have now since learned their lesson.
at any rate, opinions on waffles are held dearly. ]
What about the texture of this one makes it better?
[ she sounds legitimately curious, as she finishes off her waffle. ]
[ She's learned things. Well, that he doesn't doubt. With so many of the Dregs being Ketterdam born and bred, a topic of conversation that came up quite often was the way food was prepared. Whether it was someone reminiscing on something a parent used to make or a treat they managed to nab, it was a discussion he'd heard any number of times while passing through the Slat's dining room.
He could've joined them, told them about the tarts his father made. Or the candied yams they'd have at dinner on the holidays.
But that version of himself is gone. Kaz Rietveld drowned in the harbor and Kaz Brekker crawled out. To them, he has no parents, only Ketterdam. And he plans to keep it that way.
Inej, though, doesn't prod for memories. Her question is one he can answer. ]
It's lighter. The batter isn't as grainy and it won't sit heavy in your gut.
[ Not like waffles can do so often. While it's good to work on a full stomach, it can sometimes be uncomfortable if it's settled like a stone. ]
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Date: 2021-01-05 06:25 pm (UTC)[ It's faster to destroy a merch when equipped with all the proper information. He has his contacts and runners, but no full spy. No unseen eyes and ears, silent as a cat. The merchers wouldn't even know what hit them. ]
Don't mistake my annoyance with anger, they're not the same. [ Truthfully, it's rare he feels the burn of white hot anger. His temper usually isn't from fury, it's from aggravation. A thousand little stupid things to tolerate. He waves her off with: ]
Go on then. I'll be there.
[ In the meantime, he has things to do. And maybe some skiv to shake down so he can clear the feeling of his hackles being raised. ]
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Date: 2021-01-05 06:32 pm (UTC)[ she responds mildly, but she doesn't bother waiting for a response, instead turning her back to walk away, her braid falling neatly against her spine. he can see her tipping the dishes into a waiting receptable, offering a warm hello to the cook in the kitchens -- and then, she's gone.
down a hallway, or upstairs, or outside, who knows. but vanishes amongst the bustle of people without so much as a trace. ]
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Date: 2021-01-06 02:59 am (UTC)Despite their spat in the middle of the dining room, he had shown up the next morning at the time she'd picked. Just to show her that he could. There'd also been a matter of his night being unrestful, thoughts spinning like Makker's Wheel. He hadn't been able to stop the looped deluge and found himself drifting in and out, dreams—if they could be called that—fitful and lurid.
So when dawn fully crested, he'd dragged himself out of bed to their first lesson in fighting with a knife. He'd let her borrow his pocket knife, wanting to start off on something easy to carry and wield.
Over the next few weeks, she'd shown him exceptional promise. He hadn't needed to repeat himself much, only on the trickier bits like the overhand to underhand strike. By this point, he can't teach her any more, having imparted all his knowledge.
Of course, she can't continue to borrow his knives. It's impractical. Part of him also feels bad, still, for being fairly cruel about his comment on her waffle a few weeks past.
Not that he'll admit it. He does still think she's a bit soft.
Either way, it's what brings him to ask her up to his room. Office, really. He'd seen it and had known it should belong to her. ]
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Date: 2021-01-06 05:50 pm (UTC)so - she did as she was told, when it came to haskell. but with kaz, she disagreed. she pushed. she drew lines. and for the most part, he seemed to hate that, but he had continued to teach her. and had continued to show her the most effective way to defend herself. and, though he hadn't used the words, to kill.
they've reached a relatively easy schedule. and inej's arm is well on its way to fully healing, though she still keeps it wrapped and balmed. the scarring is going to be awful, but she doesn't care. it's prettier to look at than the brand that heleen had forced upon her skin.
on this day, though, kaz had asked her to meet him upstairs following a shift. and she obliges, though a little confused as to why. she doesn't bother going up the stairs, instead scaling the wall to slip in through the window with the broken lock, carrying a bag.
waffles, from his favorite stand in the lid. a peace offering, maybe. or maybe she just wanted to try them. ]
You should fix your window.
[ she says mildly, slipping inside to land silently on the floor, depositing the bag of food on his desk as she brushes back the hood of the jacket she recently bought. comfortable and able to climb in. ]
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Date: 2021-01-06 08:11 pm (UTC)In some ways, he's come to expect her arrival through his window. Which is what she does now, swinging in effortlessly and depositing a bag on his desk. ]
If someone else can climb three stories through my window without my notice, I'm likely to hire them.
[ It's not a skill everyone possesses. Especially the bit about being quiet during the whole affair. ]
What's this? [ He hadn't expected her to bring anything but herself. ]
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Date: 2021-01-06 09:17 pm (UTC)[ with a shrug, as she settles herself into a chair to wait for him to get what he wants from the bag. it had been something of a pain to go across the city to get it from this specific stand, but she had had a little bit extra time today to make the trip.
mostly because, on reflection, she would get nowhere in befriending (or whatever this relationship is supposed to be) kaz brekker by constantly being difficult. besides, being angry was exhausting. being nice was much easier.
and, most importantly: ]
I haven't eaten yet, and I didn't want to find food later. So whatever you need to talk to me about can happen over food.
[ she's half-wondering what else she screwed up, truth be told, but kaz appears to be in a halfway-decent mood. ]
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Date: 2021-01-07 01:58 am (UTC)She does present a logical argument though. It's late in the day for them both, but especially for her because she's usually up much earlier than him. Up with the sun and birds.
He doesn't see a reason to refuse, so he does open the bag, pulling one of the wrapped items out. It's waffles, naturally, a thing they both share. But he can tell by the wrapping that it's from the Lid. The one he almost never gets out to, despite it being his favorite.
Glancing up, he catches her gaze, studying her face for a moment.
And then he doesn't dig in right away, pulling a wrapped rectangular package out from his desk drawer and setting it in front of her on the desk. ]
That's yours.
[ Something of a thank you??? Maybe. ]
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Date: 2021-01-07 05:22 pm (UTC)It is not poisoned.
[ she says mildly, stretching out an arm to take a waffle out of the bag once he's gotten one of his own. she picked out a relatively plain one, too, mostly because her waffle doesn't really travel well. and inej is about to settle back to eat when kaz pulls out a package and puts it on the desk.
a . . . gift? or: ]
What is it?
[ she doesn't move to take it just yet, brow furrowed slightly as she glances at him, confused. ]
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Date: 2021-01-07 06:05 pm (UTC)[ At that, he settles back in his seat, unfolding the wrapping from his waffle. ]
It's not going to bite.
[ Not if she didn't want it to, anyway. And somehow he doubts she'll decide to pull it on him, even if she would technically have an opening to do so in here.
But as she said, they're basically in this together. He's tied to her contract just as much as she is, since he'd put his neck on the line for her possibility of freedom. It was going to be work for them both to get her enough money to pay it off, but it was certainly a better deal than the one Heleen had forced her into. The one she couldn't even read as it had been in Kerch.
This one she had been able to read. And could always go back to read again, if she was worried about terms changing. He doesn't think Haskell will, though. As long as the old man gets his kruge, he'll be happy. ]
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Date: 2021-01-08 02:11 pm (UTC)as she unfolds the wrapping to reveal a wooden box, she opens it to reveal a knife. the craftsmanship is beautiful, the blade easily able to fit in her smaller hands. the handle looks like it would fit perfectly against her palm. but she doesn't remove it, quite yet.
not every act of kindness is a trick, inej. but: ]
I cannot afford this.
[ she says quietly, eyes flickering back up to meet his. and while she doesn't say it, the meaning in her eyes is fairly clear. she won't have another dime added to her tab to work off; whatever she has, she'll pay for herself. ]
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Date: 2021-01-08 02:25 pm (UTC)There's a pause after she lifts the lid off the box, as though she isn't sure what to do with it. ]
You should have your own means of defense. It won't go on your contract.
[ Keeping herself alive is payment enough, right? It would be stupid to buy out her contract and then never give her any of the tools with which to make it in the Barrel. He'd told Haskell she'd be a great spider and that's what he'll get. That's what they'll all get. She already has a reputation because she's been around him, but he knows she'll have her own. One like his, armor to pull on—no one will want to touch her again.
No one smart, anyway. ]
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Date: 2021-01-08 02:39 pm (UTC)her first instinct is to not trust it, but common sense overrides the paranoia almost immediately. kaz brekker was an arrogant brat on most days, but not one to lie to her. or hold something over her head, or expect anything more of her than what was already in their deal. so - if he says it won't go on the contract, then it won't.
so she wraps her fingers around the handle experimentally, lifting the knife out of the box. it's light, and she can tell it's perfectly balanced even without removing the blade from the sheath. it's beautiful, in a bizarre way. she never thought she would think that of a knife.
for the first time in what feels like years, a genuine smile curves her lips as she looks up at him again, clearly appreciative. ]
Thank you.
[ it's said quietly, but nonetheless warm. ]
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Date: 2021-01-08 05:18 pm (UTC)Still, his gaze flicks up as she takes the knife out of the box, her grip sure but almost reverent. There's a tip of her hand as she tests the balance of it. The handle fits well, small enough for her to grip but big enough it won't cramp her hand or slip.
Maybe the bone handle is a little morbid, but it felt fitting, somehow.
When she looks up, he catches her gaze, feeling a wash of warmth when she smiles. It isn't one of her small ones, the rare times he's seen one ghosting on her mouth. This one is wider, genuine, and it lights up her whole face. ]
Can't have you using a toothpick for a knife.
[ Not like the pocket knife she'd been using occasionally. ]
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Date: 2021-01-08 05:39 pm (UTC)[ belatedly, she's glad she made the trip to the lid to get the waffles. it pales in comparison to the knife, but at least the token of appreciation was given.
she unsheathes the knife, the glint of the blade pristine. it's sharp, the silvery blade perfectly suited against the white-bone of the handle. she can nearly see her reflection in the metal.
inej sheaths the blade again, her smile still on her features before she carefully sets it back in the box, mindful not to scuff anything. sometimes, inej wondered whether the words on her wrist were a blessing or a curse. there were days where she was certain kaz hated her. but there was some good in there, underneath whatever harmed him. little bits of light, peeking through the forced darkness.
today is a good day. an excellent one, really.
she sets the box back on his desk so she could get her waffle, to join him in dinner. she's reluctant to let go of the blade, but it seems silly to let her dinner get cold. especially after the journey she took to go get it. ]
Did you have it made, or did you find it?
[ as she settles back in to eat. ]
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Date: 2021-01-10 04:46 pm (UTC)The knife gets sheathed once more and she sets the blade back into its box with care. ]
Found it. [ And he'd honestly been a little surprised to find something that had such perfect proportions for her. Small enough to be hidden easily, sharp enough to get any job done. Because he had wanted assurance that when she stuck someone, it wasn't going to be like hacking away. A dull knife is a painful way to go but slow and useless in a fight.
He settles in with his waffles as well, leaning forward in his chair so he doesn't drop anything. ]
The shopkeep mentioned it should go to someone who knew how to use it.
[ And she certainly does. ]
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Date: 2021-01-10 10:51 pm (UTC)she never really thought of herself as dangerous before. too small and lithe and fragile. not anymore, with slowly building her muscle back, feeling stronger than she has in years.
she wonders what heleen would say if she saw her now. ]
When am I going to go with you on a job?
[ she asks idly, taking another bite of her waffle. it's something that causes her anxiety, because while she knows how to use the knife, she isn't so sure she can. but there's plenty to be done, without killing someone. or hurting them in any way. she can be useful without that.
hopefully, anyway. ]
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Date: 2021-01-12 05:34 pm (UTC)[ He doesn't have an exact timeline, not yet. A strange thing for him, though not totally uncommon. Sometimes in the Barrel, one had to wait for pieces to fit together. And right now, he was in one of those moments of limbo.
It's fine, he's a patient person. Though, he understands her anxiety around going out and doing an actual job that didn't just involve sneaking and listening. ]
If things fall into place right, about two days, give or take. So eager to stick someone?
[ She doesn't seem to be, but maybe the comment will lighten the mood. Maybe. It probably came out more serious than he meant. ]
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Date: 2021-01-12 09:41 pm (UTC)[ it's said with certainty, her eyes flickering away from his face back to her waffle, which she picks at, a slight frown appearing on her features.
killing someone is going to happen. she's no fool. that's what's expected of her, in part. but most of her job is to collect secrets, lies, and pass them on to kaz. if she has to kill someone, she would only do so in self-defense. or to save someone else. never affirmatively.
she can keep at least that shred of morality, with everything else sacrificed. ]
I would rather jump than wait.
[ ripping off the bandage would be easier than tip-toeing around the inevitable of having to participate in dreg business. two days gives her time to prepare, if nothing but mentally. ]
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Date: 2021-01-15 12:55 am (UTC)Though strangely, he feels weird about having made her frown, the comment clearly a bit upsetting. It's never mattered before, so why does it matter now? He mentally shakes that off, focusing instead on his dinner and her follow up. ]
You'll get your chance. [ And: ] No one will hear you coming.
[ He'll be shocked, honestly shocked, if they do. ]
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Date: 2021-01-17 02:18 am (UTC)she's beyond tired of feeling like she needs protecting.
she picks at her waffle a bit more, letting his words wash over her, before inej elects to change the subject. ]
I do not taste the difference, between these and the ones down the street.
[ she says, as she bites into her waffle. ]
Seems as if it is not worth the walk.
[ she might be goading an argument. a non-serious one, really. it's clear by the look in her eyes that she's joking. ]
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Date: 2021-01-17 05:33 pm (UTC)But it had been one step closer to taking down Rollins. One more stacked card in his then budding reputation for ruthlessness. He supposes he should feel worse, for all the lives he's ended, for the people he's surely made miserable in the wake of his schemes.
Except he isn't. They'd stood in the way of a non-negotiable goal.
Inej won't be like him, he thinks, despite enduring far worse in aspects he never had to consider, being out on the street. He doesn't think it too often of people here but: she's too good for the Barrel. ]
You become a waffle connoisseur when I wasn't looking?
[ Pls, this waffle is better and she has to know that!!! ]
Besides, you're comparing the wrong thing, it's the texture that's different.
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Date: 2021-01-17 11:49 pm (UTC)[ people in the slat don't shut up. on most levels it's really annoying, and inej can understand why kaz likes the attic-space he's ensnared for himself. it's much quieter up here.
at any rate, one of the things the dregs like to talk about is food. and some of them talk about women, which causes inej's lips to curl in disgust, though she tries to keep her expression neutral whenever it happens. she's clocked one or two in the face, for making the odd comment about the menagerie. most of them have now since learned their lesson.
at any rate, opinions on waffles are held dearly. ]
What about the texture of this one makes it better?
[ she sounds legitimately curious, as she finishes off her waffle. ]
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Date: 2021-01-18 11:47 pm (UTC)He could've joined them, told them about the tarts his father made. Or the candied yams they'd have at dinner on the holidays.
But that version of himself is gone. Kaz Rietveld drowned in the harbor and Kaz Brekker crawled out. To them, he has no parents, only Ketterdam. And he plans to keep it that way.
Inej, though, doesn't prod for memories. Her question is one he can answer. ]
It's lighter. The batter isn't as grainy and it won't sit heavy in your gut.
[ Not like waffles can do so often. While it's good to work on a full stomach, it can sometimes be uncomfortable if it's settled like a stone. ]